WHO AM I

 

Assuming that the only person we have to like is ourselfs it is odd that we develop some habits which are directed to catch applaus of others. The more you need the spotlight on you, the more you fit in a category scientists call extroverts. The more you find your peace in the offside, the more you might be an introvert. The book "The Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive In an Extrovert World" by Marti Olsen Laney points out that around 25% of us all are introverts. For those who are fitting to this category things have to be more reasonable and explainable. They take their time and mention little things and changes.

 

“I see what you are saying, it wasn’t what she said that you didn’t like, it was her tone of voice that bothered you.”

 

Extroverts are faster in their decisions and represent them with full inherent power.
Adrelanin pushes them and they are hard to stop once they have started. Doubts can be ignored more easily in this rush.

While the one extrem avoids crowds and noise, the other leads the scenery and baths in fast uprising colorful situations.

So what? That we are different is not a new scientific issue, why pointing it out? Because daily life gives some special treats to introverts. Although being frank is a habit introverts possess, they will just stay away from some scenery. This case can reduce a mean reaction of an extrovert, he judges it negatively in public. All this situations hurt me if I am witness. I might not be the best example of an introvert, but a lot of the characterisations fit. I always kept on running away and seperated myself. Even if I can handle loud and crowdy situations and moreover stood often in the spotlight. But usually I never wanted it shinging on me, I did it my way. This is one of the mysteries in my life and I can't find a proper answer. All I know is that I live with selfconfidence and courage to the risk, what has an effect of a shield. I never needed followers. I never gave my friendship easily. People are interested in me and most often I am polite or enjoy the company as long as I want, until I just walk off. Just a handful of persons know me well.
Sometimes this makes me sad, it makes me sad that I have to force myself to keep in contact cause I easily can live a long time alone. It makes me sad that others don't know how much I appreciate receiving messages on the other hand.
What I hate is superficiality and unfortunately extroverts hold this attribute. After some time this person can't entertain me anymore if he/she did not enjoy me in first place. I learned how to open the door into this turbolent world. Attached to that door and bound to my wrist is a thread. It brings me safely back into my world.

 

“The person in life that you will always be with the most, is yourself. Because even when you are with others, you are still with yourself, too! When you wake up in the morning, you are with yourself, laying in bed at night you are with yourself, walking down the street in the sunlight you are with yourself.What kind of person do you want to walk down the street with? What kind of person do you want to wake up in the morning with? What kind of person do you want to see at the end of the day before you fall asleep? Because that person is yourself, and it's your responsibility to be that person you want to be with. I know I want to spend my life with a person who knows how to let things go, who's not full of hate, who's able to smile and be carefree. So that's who I have to be.”

- C. JoyBell C.